Thoughts

I think about my past more than I do my future
It’s what slows me down
I scream inside knowing I could’ve done better
And I try to hide
It’s hard to put into words what I feel at times 
And I’m scared to close my eyes
I would give anything to take this pain away even for a moment
But if I did I know I’d be lost in time
 
I show my friends this image of a tough kid
Cold hearted
But it isn't me
It’s just someone I pretend to be
Got me so confused that I can’t even relate to me

If I had to write a check for all Ive lost
I wonder how much it would cost me 
Every decision I made 
Made me who I am
And where i am is right where I should be
So no more
Could’ve 
Should’ve 
Would’ve bothering me
Where I go from here
Well
That’s all up to me
D.Christian
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Michael Avatar
June 21, 2019 at 7:48 PM
So right... this write most likely applies to many other people too...
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