Thoughts

As many a day when all obstacles are thrown my way I awake to bitter sweet reality where im so happy and yet so sad so withdrawn and yet so social so confident and insecure so real and yet so uncertain my friends they circulate aroun me i make there day but sumtimes it feels that i should not live this day i want life sometimes wanting to end it i feel accomplished and smart but know my mind has ended i cease to give up but i constantly never try i always laugh and smile but inside i cry im so nice but im a dog that lies i want so much and yet deserve so little nuthing is enough and i have plenty then i tell myself i am me and i am merry i think too much but i admit plenty i release all my problems and that takes courage so others will rise and follow.