This I Know

Why? The question so easy So difficult to answer I know why Why? It leaves me broken all over again I know the answer, I know, no, no, no . . . I don’t want this Why? This pain that’s not all mine . . . hardly mine It rips and tears and cuts My heart to pieces It bleeds and drains my soul away I wish I never had one I know why Why did I have to teach myself the answer? I know why I wish I was blind, deaf, numb and uncaring I wish you never made me Why? Why did you put me here?! What did we do to you? I wish I knew what to say! Why? Every time life turns good and gets better You smash it all to bits and pieces You rip and tear and shred me apart Again and again and again!! I know why God help me I know why It leaves me beaten, battered, discarded and defeated Alone . . . Always alone in the end I don’t want to know why anymore Take it away You can do it if you try Why? I cannot stop myself from know why And these words sound hollow empty like me Why not me and not other It was I who stole and ripped asunder A world, a life, ahhhhh I curse you!!!!! Not them, not him, not her . . Me Just me Why? Can’t you . . . Just go away and leave us be Why can’t I cry for anyone or anything Why? Would someone please tell me Please What good is a heart and soul anyway? You break and take them both away all the time You bastard!! Why? Ask me why I don’t believe in you! Ask me again why I believe I live in hell! Why . . ? Just tell me why . . .