This Demon

My inner demon tells me that I'm nothing A waste of a person, a male not worth loving This Demon influences me, infiltrates my thoughts Bringing up memories of what i have lost This Demon is a repeating voice in my head A constant reminder that turns my heart into lead He's a heavy burden, that i must carry with me everywhere Changing happy emotions into a stoic despair I watch peoples reactions to me, and he makes me think its disgust This Demon drives me to tears, a man with no guts He's in my quiet moments, when I'm alone by myself And intense emotions are realized and felt When i fight him, it results in an intense rage Anger at myself, and any other factors in my life's stage I'm a man, these sad emotions are beneath me Who are you demon, to try and control me I become angry at my fall downs, anger at my failures Angry at my crush and my failure to tell her This Demon makes me see red, thinking of the many rejections! The looks of disgust whenever i try and show affection! My head yells insults, including the crushes that i thought i once loved Including myself, for being affected by love I can't beat This Demon, he's just to strong But i'll never stop trying, striving for what i long