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This Battle In My Head

Why do I feel so alone?
Why must I have this feeling,
when His love is shown?
Why am I crying?

I hate how I deal
with everything thrown at me.
Why must I feel
like there's nothing I can achieve?

I know He's here,
and I know He cares,
but I always fear
that no one's there.

I feel as if 
everyone will leave me.
Almost as if
no one loved me.

When I know
everyone cares...
It's just hard to show,
I just wish they were fair.

I cry almost every night,
thinking of how to die,
of how this came into my sight,
how to say goodbye.

I'm sorry.
I know this isn't right.
I've just been lonely, 
all I want to do is to stop this fight.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Koven Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 8:28 PM
You are not alone. There are many who share your sorrows and many who have found ways to cope. You are not alone.
Jusino Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 2:40 AM
Thank you. There are many times where I feel alone, I just have to remind myself that I am not.
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