Thinking About You

Just a year ago- Thinking about you was like being in heaven With my stomach full of butterflies Every thought about you made me smile And smiling like that all through the day Had become a sweet habit It's boundaries were covered with infinity So there was no boundary at all To think of the galaxies which could be created If i had you right by my side It would give this adrenaline rush Which made me feel like that, right there,was the time In all my day, over all these years of living When i actually felt alive To realise what living really felt like It's background music was full of love songs Where I would write those songs for you Trying to contain in them everything i felt for you But failing, for how could I? When there was so much to express And now Thinking about you is like a curse Hearing your name gives me heartaches Even the pain is so much that If i try to contain the pain in a sad song I would fail again, just like before It's like a craving of the worst kind Where all the rationale for not craving fails It's like being a 5 year old kid Who does the exact thing he is told not to do So i guess, I'll be writing both- about love and about pain Hoping that writing about these 2 things, would, someday Help to end at least one of them And set me free