Then and Now

Then: naïve, sheltered, shy what i thought i wanted to be - an archeologist, Barbizon model (no proclivity), a writer, a psychologist, a mom, a wife Now: brazen, talkative, traveller, open what i am - a Christian, a writer (a poet), a model citizen, prone to psychoanalyse, a mom, grandma, a wife Then: at 5, under the knife, tonsils removed, ice cream treat; cut my foot in a bike spoke, no dinner Now: Wheeled through airport, whisked to urgent care, ambulance ride to hospital, anxiety led to prayer, peace as piece of me removed (gallbladder) Then: single, not wise, average, well-endowed Now: married a long long time, know things (experience), endowment’s gone south Then: envision wearing a billowy white shirt, sitting in front of window facing the sea, writing poetry, ink dry Now: Anytime, anywhere, wearing anything or nothing at all, ink wet as muse sees fit Then: face to face friends, cord attached to wall, cell of my own making Now: poetry friends all over the world, poetry transports with my fingertips Then: Mom, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Grandparents Now: Deficit of loved ones. Looking to the future in bright new faces Then: reaching inward, wanting love Now: reaching out, loving Going further: reaching ever upward, in word and deed I am entitled to die, once, and see my Lord and God 12/30/2022 Then and Now Sponsor: Unseeking Seeker