The Youth of My Unrequited Infatuation

It was a quick exchange…. one glance and it was as i’ve known him my whole life It was a quick touch One touch that kept me up every single night THE YOUTH OF MY UNREQUITED INFATUATION.. The thing that no one tells you about love is that it comes at anytime And no one is required...to reciprocate.. It's truly…..sublime?? No matter how many times my heart beat out of my chest No matter how many times my love was expressed No matter how much i tried not to look obsessed No matter how much i tried to suppress It was obvious to you and those around That the sight of you picked me up off the ground But what they didnt know is that I needed you! I needed you to help conceal my problems I needed you to help heal and solve em I thought that the thought of your pale skin would help me recuperate But even the thought of you steered me everywhere but straight Still I put on a smile daily and wished myself luck Yet i was still struck with the reality of rejection THE YOUTH OF MY UNREQUITED INFATUATION Everything about him and I just seemed to click Every Part of me wanted my temporary happiness to stick When listening to his pain i would hold back For the fear that if i released my pain he would see what “normalness” i lacked I tried to distract myself with the fact that the feeling was not mutual I tried to replace him but he was different...he was unusual Me attempting to replace him was pure blunder Though i was in a relationship with another i was left to ponder Over the thought that,that quick gaze Distracted me from reality and through me directly in a daze I know that i'm at fault...my attachment issues have me in a rut I tried with all my might to give up on you but How dare I stop loving you, how dare I give up How dare you not accept me...is my love not enough THE YOUTH OF MY UNREQUITED INFATUATION I know that me calling him “the love of my life” and “love at first sight” sounds a bit cliche But even now as i’m sleep i can't get rid of the sight of his face Though I can't go back in time I would be lying if i said i didn't want him to become mine