The Within

In the depths of my heart
Hidden beyond the brokenness of my soul
Resides my fragile trampled spirit
Clinging to my last strand of control

I can feel the lifeforce decaying slowly
As the creeping numbness within spreads
And incognitive random thoughts
Do a tap dance in my head.

Ive silently tucked my prayers away
Deep in the unanswered files
Finally realizing no savior is coming
I feel i knew all the while.

People see me from a distance
But dont truly see the turmoil in me
How im barely living out my existance
Locked inside the misery of me.

So its behind fences so very high
I choose to keep the rest of the world out
Born to die alone without love
And then denied heaven no doubt.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2016



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Date: 4/17/2018 8:22:00 AM
We have much in common you and I. It was like reading my own words of the past. And even sometimes now. At my lowest I would remind myself that Jesus died for everyone ...what would I be saying about the worth of his blood if I kept telling myself I was not worth being forgiven; or had sinned too much to be forgiven? I did not consider myself to have worth even to God. You have touched my heart this morning Carl. Be at peace my friend :)
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Date: 9/18/2016 11:39:00 AM
Wow, that's just too deep my friend. Hope it's only a poem. I'd hate to think this is how you really feel. Always seek those you love, and care for. You are worth more than you'll ever know.... Linda
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Date: 9/19/2016 2:41:00 AM
Thank you for saying that Linda. Sometimes i feel like my only worth is in the eyes of God and maybe thats all i need. I dont know. Blessings Carl
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