The Within

In the depths of my heart
Hidden beyond the brokenness of my soul
Resides my fragile trampled spirit
Clinging to my last strand of control

I can feel the lifeforce decaying slowly
As the creeping numbness within spreads
And incognitive random thoughts
Do a tap dance in my head.

Ive silently tucked my prayers away
Deep in the unanswered files
Finally realizing no savior is coming
I feel i knew all the while.

People see me from a distance
But dont truly see the turmoil in me
How im barely living out my existance
Locked inside the misery of me.

So its behind fences so very high
I choose to keep the rest of the world out
Born to die alone without love
And then denied heaven no doubt.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Thomas Avatar
April 17, 2018 at 8:22 AM
We have much in common you and I. It was like reading my own words of the past. And even sometimes now. At my lowest I would remind myself that Jesus died for everyone ...what would I be saying about the worth of his blood if I kept telling myself I was not worth being forgiven; or had sinned too much to be forgiven? I did not consider myself to have worth even to God. You have touched my heart this morning Carl. Be at peace my friend :)
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September 18, 2016 at 11:39 AM
Wow, that's just too deep my friend. Hope it's only a poem. I'd hate to think this is how you really feel. Always seek those you love, and care for. You are worth more than you'll ever know.... Linda
Fraser Avatar
September 19, 2016 at 2:41 AM
Thank you for saying that Linda. Sometimes i feel like my only worth is in the eyes of God and maybe thats all i need. I dont know. Blessings Carl
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