The Waters Edge

I sat down by the waters edge Felt the breeze against my legs Dipped my toe, dropped my head Deemed I’d rather be in bed How is it so, I just don’t know Where did my whole life go? I question everything I think is mine Always looking for those other times Where joyful memories are not dead And why I keep on feeling dread. Silence creeps up from behind Gently comes into my mind To a loving I have longed to find Here I treat myself so kind No more hanging down my head No more wanting to be in bed. I capture a glimpse of what it's like To love myself and not be so blind For I have lived all this time Wanting you was my only crime. Now, I go back to the water's edge Feel the breeze against my legs Dip my toe and raise my head.