The War Within

the war within spinning...uncontrolably friends betrayals I give give give... they take take take... fear...aching fear inside money...****ing money IRS...college...utilities...everybody stomach is sour...queezy children abused...even killed adults like gangsters...evil when will it end? how can we stop it? troops must live like animals surviving off the government government...what a joke people die on roof tops families shattered...lost hurricanes...earthquakes God humbles our spoiled nation It CAN happen to us no immunity for the powerful people die...so many gone education...just an obstical blocking the road to wisdom Mans laws...the Constitution Gods laws...the Bible Evolution...they teach it we know the real story In the beginning... yada yada yada Mans law...we can have guns <----they teach it Gods law...we can't steal or kill <----they don't robbery...murder guns a tool for both Mans laws...shouted Gods laws...forbidden I say peace = innocence = POWER remember the world as a kid see it now thru kids eyes let the kids rule the nation simple minds = simple life you have a checkbook so you DO have money mom oops there it goes again switching channels in my mind what college...which path how can I help...she's on her way years yet to come...so different will I make it thru...will she? changes in attitude with age comes change...abruptly this house...I want to lay down but this house... laundry...burn it dishes...break it carpet...piss on it dust...blow it housework...**** it no friends anyhow 25 shoes laying around but not one pair? and panties... they NEVER have panties who hides the hairbrushes did I really buy nail clippers every thing has it's place here...every place has it's thing who leaked the CIA info... who ****ing cares do I dodge the birds? germs everywhere...waiting mother...well won't go there PJ...not worthy of my thoughts JT...so not going there either Thomas...best friends always...He's #1 Josh & Hannah...well ... gotta hate em Angels...I feel them at times David...my angel on earth news...media...unrated kids truly believe in friendship they live...they learn grandmother...I need to visit I ache...meds become cash cash for what? gambling...food...gas checks...those damn checks they haunt me the telephone is my enemy surgery?...no surgery what about 10 years from now dentist...I'd rather die my dad...a pain that will never heal the spinning slows down for now 10 minutes inside my head so very exhausting...thinking a short break...then once again the spinning takes control Dave the only one understanding i worry...I know I exhaust him I exhaust me I feel better now cleared some of my mind the thoughts escaped the real question is.... will any of this *****matter tomorrow? ok...here I go again break is over... another whirlwind begins