The Wanderer Part 1

I remember a day I smiled at her And she smiled back That was miles away down the road We parted there And I came back to find her long gone No trace, no note, no sign I wondered if she had hesitated before leaving Was I worth a moment's reflection? Does love escape so easily? Can I hope for an equivalant peace? I sat upon a stone for an hour On the deserted road And reflected upon her existence which so troubled me How many have traveled these worn paths? Why do I see nothing from horizon to horizon? I smashed the stone over my head Hoping it would ease the pain No fresh thoughts flowed; but merely, a second of intense pain which melted into anger; and resolved to despair Alone I sat till the sun had buried itself below the distant hills A cloud pushed it down I knew I might die there, if I did not travel on Death has no mercy So I put my shoes on and walked There was music in the distant hills flowed through the leaves Did I detect a sinister leer across the moon's face? I spat at the stars Whose light shone on me with such a total waste Each step towards those grey and black hills brought a recurrence of each burning memory I had no solice in thought I took off my shoes as I stumbled over the gravel Hoping the jabbing pain of each stone's attack would flavor my thoughts I was embarrassed even while being alone For I knew I was a fool Had I not held her tighter Had I not dragged her Had I not missed her on a different road. I had not And I paid dearly for a few moments of unexcelled bliss I spent six days walking in silence Not a soul passed me by Only the crickets saluted my march- or did they laugh at me from their dark dens? I tried sleepwalking when the agony of thought burnt too deep But I bagan finding myself wandering off the road You need both eyes to travel that road I was close to death one weary night A night so weary I was restless with exhaustion When the darkness reached out to grab me And I nearly smiled to see my end A sudden flash!! A gleaming yellow light The dim flicker of hope swelled at the possibility So I ran with my last moment's breath to embrace a beauty which outshone my old love Strength returned and my feet were no longer sore Love bloomed to heights I never knew existed Old loves and earlier horrors were dispelled by her shining yellow light (continued on part two)