The Value In Brokenness

a life destroyed by a dr's stupidity. Angry that his holiday was ruined because a woman was in labor. his carelessness altered my reality. I would have been born without pain if he wasn't in such a rush that day. breaking my skull as I slipped from his hands. then tried to ensure a secret it'd remain. But then six months later it came to the light my body began convulsing uncontrollably my parents took me everywhere they could till finally they spoke to that doctor about that night. My childhood proved difficult with no control never knowing what would happen in a day rejection and taunting were tools of the bullies and the stress of it all would take its toll. Then growing up after graduation day I went to Canada to see some of my family the cabin pressure from the flight there and back awoke the sleeping monster on my 18th birthday. a brain tumor began showing itself slowly my dr ran some tests finding it shocking my parents and himself how long it was there and why it grew around fragment of bone and in a sack to protect me. But as years went one more things appeared dangerous pregnancies and miscarriages as well after my life changed again new things were diagnosed things that I once told could happen and was feared So now I have more than just the epilepsy but three new ailments I now live with not counting the small things all along lupus, Ra and thyroid issues remind me life isn't easy. but all this taught me that I am not defined by my disabilities as people consider them, but instead are my limitations. God guides me showing I still have so many possibilities ©June 2019, Bonnie J Hollywood-Cutts