the transformation

for Divorced Poetry Contest Sponsored by Kai Michael Neumann ---------------- "I need a brake" words that twisted my heart- shattering the dream that we would never part. I asked myself 'what ever did I do wrong? sad, gloominess could`ve easily been my song. I wouldn't let the anger and misery grow or cultivate- uprising feelings I wanted to curb and mitigate. Took deep breaths to suppress loathe and hate- didn`t want these feelings to be my everlasting fate. To change I had to show myself some discipline- so to cure my sickness I took my medicine. Alone but not lonely my goal to liberty- to my old self I'd write it an eulogy. A change in me became my one and only mission- out with the old and in with the new, my true ambition. I opened my mind, revisited the pen- mended my inner self to be born again. Wouldn't let others be my one downfall- to my inner voice I`d answer it`s call. Worked at keeping a positive inner mind- exercise and meditation, two combined. I went about losing a bit of weight- transforming me, motivation to create. Walked many miles to feel the light- braking binding chains always in sight. Now it`s joy to bathe in the ever shining day- 'cause I braced the warmth, and not the grey. My story is honest, so very true- hope it inspires, not bring the blue.