The Stuggle

Why must I suffer this overwhelming depression? Am I supposed to learn some important lesson? Guess that's just the way life goes This world is a barren wasteland where only pain grows Sure there are moments of warmth between connecting souls A welcome respite from the masses of assholes Who believe they have all the answers The truth is their hate is a cancer turning God's holy books of instruction into a reason to cause those who disagree, destruction I want to make a difference to contribute but I feel like nothing good left in me to distribute Except to turn words into verse deeply heartfelt Even though these feelings get so hot my insides melt Making it through each day is a struggle it takes all my energy not to stumble descending into bottomless darkness slowly turning into something evil and monstrous I fight the pull of despair but really who cares it's taking all my strength to hold on I miss you so much, mom I just want to rest I'm constantly stressed is there any hope for me? will I ever feel free? Is heaven just a dream? A lie so we give into societies regime?