The Story of My Life

It all started the moment I came out of my mother's womb I did things without overthinking it I lived like it was my last day on earth Always took a leap of faith. But now, I don't know what it is I'm suffering from But I think it's OCD and anxiety No as a matter of fact I know it is I can't do something without overthinking and taking leaps of faith is impossible for me. I'm too young to be stressing so much I'm too young to have have a blood pressure equivalent to that of a 60 year old I just  want a good life One without stress and anxiety Sometimes I lie on my bed in the dark Facing the ceiling and tears of sadness fall Sometimes I wish the floor could just open up and swallow me Sometimes I wish I could be a baby forever After wishing I always say one thing to myself "If wishes were horses, beggars would ride on" Then I move on with life Fake a smile, fake happiness and moooovve                         IT IS WHAT IT IS.