The Story of a Muse

The story of a Muse A beautiful woman that loved him, she listened to him, in awe of his genius, she inspired him, encouraged him, to do his best work, she validated for him, that his thoughts and ideas were otherworldly, She knew his mind and heart must be heard, His art could change the world, and took on the job of pulling this gift out of him, she lassoed the tornado that was his soul, and directed it, into the brush or pen, A symbiotic relationship, of male and female, at their best, a guided purpose. It seems as if she always left him in the end, A mystical woman with more artists to inspire, left him crying and wounded, to do his crazy works after his genius expired, no direction, haphazard, psychotic, suicidal used up, emotions undirected, lost, death. but a life of value, influential, inspirational, an immortal, I do not know where i got this impression, this story of the muse. Its not fair, all my muse's, dont care about my work, they only care about how i can help them, They listen long enough to find what i am looking for, Put on the mask, the liar face, manipulative, just long enough to get what they want, or realize that i wont give it to them. Try to buy my soul with their sex or money. My naivety, my love, my hope, my trust, used against me, for their selfish motives. Purity pretended, love mimicked, smile a lie. Is the muse a lie, is this why the artists go crazy? Is the suffering evoked by an evil women inspirational? I have seen men like me, with experiences like me. Too wounded to love, to trust, to try again. Settle for a weak woman, one that wont hurt them. Men, i have always considered cowards They cant look me in the eyes. As i am beat down by love, i see their temptation. Chasing the muse, waiting for her, mistaken mimics, Dont tell me the muse doesnt exist...........