The Sight of Someone You Love Who's Going Away

For I love you so I feel in my heart and in my throat tugging at the roots of my soul -- oh! I've never been good at articulating how I feel original thinking never came naturally but now I look at you and I see myself, in what I've seen you as for so long and I finally understand I would see you sitting head in hand and beg myself what are you thinking of? you would look at me with condescending eyes nothing you would say, nothing Maybe it is because I am your age when I met you or maybe it is because I am now not so malleable that now I know what nothing is. 1/18/21