The Secret We Must Never Share

You haunt my dreams Walking from page to page Slipping through cracks of walls and gates Following each hour You blend and twist the faces Of everyone I know And I find myself looking at you Some moments I see your sneer Your face full of anger and hate Twisting your features into sharp lines Daggers that cut through to my soul Mocking me, folding me in upon myself But not always, no, not always Most nights I see your smile Your eyes soft and full of light Dark depths gleaming Tender lips You are so close I can touch you And as I do, I feel your skin Familiar and warm and still it calls to me Come home, come home Deep within my dreams my heart aches Aches at this trickery Aches to touch you as I awake Aches to taste your sweetness again Aches to feel your love Aches remembering this loss This death of what was once ours Your betrayals cut into me And my betrayals bleed and bleed I can't forgive either of us for what we have done You for your cruelty, or me for running to another, Doing as he said, believing all he claimed. You said last that you loved me and I called it a lie How could it be anything but After you hurt me the ways that you had But my heart whispered that it was truth You refuse to look at me now Another mans band on my left hand Attorneys speaking of the promises I now break Me hiding the shame in my face Remembering I must to keep the family I now have But in my dreams you haunt me still It is the only place we can find our love again It is the only place I can speak my truth That you were the one no other would be like That I had given my all to you.