The Search For Mentality

This is my search for the proper mentality Ive realized I need to change myself drastically, And Radically I need to Change my whole inner Anatomy On The search for a cure to my insanity I just dont want to be another fatality As I look around casually, trying to think rationally But the only answer i can find is to change my whole personality If i dont the pain will continue to grow rapidly In this calamity I lost you, but only to a mental catastrophe But you looked into my eyes and said "it wasnt me" So ill continue to be in this state of amity Thankfully I lack apathy While i wait Ecstatically For you come back to me, In my time of need I tried to turn to christanity Because They said the bible would hold the answers in reality But my life needs to be lived emphatically So id like to drop a bomb on your faith, **** the baptistry And im sorry for all this blasphomy My words of truth have turned into a rhapsody And ive learned that The one of the real gifts you left me is was this constructive agony My brain needs to be drained because its nearly at full capacity My thoughts are endless and keep growing erratically Every thought of mine is full of confession, confusion and wishes for the future, Id call it a fantasy Because I dream one day we will be living together, fantastically And stop being held down by gravity And ill float away with you in my arms Now understand I say that with first meaning of audacity And I feel like you are mine as if you were given to me through my born rights constitutionalily And In my mind Our love was a given right that was ammended and ended with feelings of impartialily But with time the amendment will be repealed happily, with no memory And youll return to me randomly And ill tell you "i wasnt worried" sarcastically Because when you walked away it left a very deep cavity i tried to fill it up with pathetic fallacy but only you in my arms will fill it to the top dramatically And nothing will ever be the same in my eyes and in my reality Dont worry I dont say that unhappily Because missing you has caused me to fight and fix my life and my immorality So now ill take a bow and say "thank you" like im trying to end this theatrically With your hand in mine and the proper punctuality.