The Rush

She retraces the past to uncover the mystery of the many failed relationships. The first date seems to generate some fireworks. This entices her to tempt fate and go out again. Sometimes there is more of a connection and other times she strikes out. The third date things get more intimate as more secrets are uncovered. The next thing she knows he is all over or he might wait one more date to get aggressive. Yet in that moment the situation has become too intense for her to handle. She slaps his arm and flees from the vicinity. Yet she always wonders what could have been. She thinks back to why she struggles with a guy wanting physical contact with her. She admits to herself she suffers from a low self worth. In middle school she remembers being called ugly while the guys shoved her around. While she has untapped this clairvoyant moment, the rush of it all still traumatizes her.