The Real Me

I do not know what has become of me is not the nature with which i was born a moment of happiness a moment of sorrow all in a moment is gone I miss the nature i was known for i really miss what i was searching for the real me searching for its cause When i look nowhere and think of nothing but absolute they think me in grave worry as if i am but destitute I really miss fun part of my life which escaped from me itself replaced by an urge to know myself leaving me all alone with no ones help Now my all relations are at stake for my indifferent attitude everyone wishing me to be normal for which everyone is ready to contribute Its hard for me to judge my way with two ways for me to go gain back my jolly nature or learn to know myself for the nature to bow GOD has sent me yo this world to indulge into all worldly acts if HE wanted me to know the absolute HE would himself have told all the facts So i think must live this life with all my jolly nature within me to enjoy all pleasures of the world with no reservations in my mind letting myself free.