The Question

Why do you always look at me
With that question in your eyes
The one that always wonders
How come you never try

Why can’t you just go exercise
Your face is filled with doubt
You shake your head and wonder
What do you have to be depressed about

You have a job
You have wealth
You have a family 
You have your health

Go watch a funny movie
Or read a funny book
Change your way of thinking
Clean your house or cook

Lace up your dusty sneakers
Go walk around the lake
I’m sure to God you will feel better
If my advice you would only take

I have a lot of patience 
For you my dearest friend
A lack of understanding
Makes it hard to comprehend

It’s not a way of thinking
It doesn’t come from any place
The loss of feeling in my life
Takes up a gigantic space

The things that you find so easy
Are the things that make me blue
To ask me to forget that I am sad
Is liking asking me to remember someone I never knew

It’s not a situation
It’s not anything I control
It’s not my choice to wake up
Trapped in this black hole

Sometimes my thoughts are anxious
Sometimes my heart is faint
The color of distress in my body
I will never be able to paint

Sometimes it’s hard to breathe
Sometimes it’s all a test
Sometimes it’s hard to hold the hand
Of the person you love the best

Some days feel like a battle
Some days feel like a chore
Some days you stop to wonder
Will I ever win this war

So as you read this poem
My sneakers I will take
And I will force my body 
To walk around the lake

I will have a beautiful smile
For everyone I meet
I will look them in the eyes
And never miss a beat

No one will be the wiser
No one will think I am sappy
I will leave them all wondering
Why is she so happy?

So the next time that you look at me
With that question in your eyes
Think to yourself I am happy for her
Look how hard she tries
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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