The Pains of Night Without True Love

The ambient glow of the fireplace becomes hypnotic. Home alone, always, without true love to snuggle me. Each of many pains of night makes my mind neurotic. Pathetic it may seem for a young and beautiful girl. Alone again after years of searching; life becomes a whirl. Incessant longing gnaws away at self-control. Night brings its darkness to the weariness of my soul. Satan takes a grip upon my sanity; I am no longer whole. Oh, that I could find true love and live a life of joy. Forever, I live searching, only to be someone’s toy. Night without you, my true love, is a lonely curse. If only I could find you, whoever you are, wherever you are. Grateful love, come; I beg you and quench my thirst. Heaven is but a thought away…as is suicide. Touch me with your warmth; Save me and let love abide. Where is the dream that I dreamt as a child. I never knew that the world could be so wild. Today is just one step in eternity, but forever alone. How can I face another day; I know not! Over and over the thoughts circulate in my mind. Utter self-destructions seeming the only solution. Then, I fear the great and dreadful consequence. To live eternity alone would be unbearable. Reality visits at the break of dawn, briefly. Underneath these fancy clothes lies a broken heart. Each day takes me to a new horizon…until night. Loneliness tortures me; at dark I am immobile. Oh, the pains of night without true love destroy. Vitality sinks into Satan’s sullen ship; sips sorrows. Everything seems lost, but I pray for true love, tomorrow. Copyright March 8, 2015 Written for Poetry Soup Member Contest: The Pain of Night Sponsored by Tammy Reams