Jeanne Mcgee Poet Quintain (English)

The Pain I Hide

It rains inside of me though sun I see
     The clouds I know and cuts and scars and tears
            I hide from you the chain that binds to me
                  And wrap despairs’ cloak safe about my fears
                        My smile belies my pain.  It disappears

                         I fight so hard to wear a brighter shroud
                  And break the screams I hear go through my head
            To free my shame and speak its’ name aloud
      And let you see my pain each time I bled
But then I think I’m better off just dead



This is dedicated to my niece, who has fought depression for years, cutting and suicide attempt.  She still struggles but she is strong and determined to beat it.  She has learned to reach out for help and I love her dearly.

Written 7-24-2019

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Connie Marcum Wong September 8, 2019 at 1:46 PM It is very difficult to reach out for help. I am so glad that your niece has done this. I am sure that all your support and support of her family will help her heal and find other ways to deal with pain. Your poem is beautifully written Jeanne. Congratulations on your deserving win! xxoo

Andrea Dietrich September 8, 2019 at 9:56 AM Great poem written from the heart. A big congrats to you, Jeanne.

Vijay Pandit September 8, 2019 at 6:59 AM Back with congrats on your well deserved win Jeanne.

Janice Canerdy September 7, 2019 at 10:36 PM Jeanne, thank you for your GREAT entry. Congratulations on your win. Janice

Kurt Ravidas August 4, 2019 at 6:42 AM Deep, impressive and nicely penned. GL in contest.

Jennifer Proxenos July 27, 2019 at 2:48 AM You depict the pain of your niece so beautifully in poetic form - I hope with all my heart that with reaching out for help and with you by her side with your love and caring, she will overcome the worst and perhaps even get completely better. My thoughts are with you and your niece, God Bless, Jennifer.

Constance La France July 26, 2019 at 11:01 AM Jeanne, this is a deeply emotional write that touched my heart.. best of luck in the contest and btw- I sent you a soup mail ~ Jeanne Mcgee July 26, 2019 at 12:01 PM I love poetry for allowing me to express things held deep inside without harm.

John Lawless July 26, 2019 at 7:40 AM It is said that "we are only as sick as our secrets" so this poem shines a light on a very difficult issue and offers a glimmer of hope to all who read it. Thank You Jeanne Mcgee July 26, 2019 at 8:49 AM And hard to know how to help. Sometimes just to listen and not judge is the best help I can give her.

Vijay Pandit July 25, 2019 at 2:55 PM So touching..all the best for the contest, Jeanne.

Caren Krutsinger July 25, 2019 at 11:20 AM A gorgeous write, and so accurate. The feelings you expressed are well done; because I thought it was you and I was saying "Oh, no!" I am still saying "oh, no," and sad it is your niece. So glad she is reaching out; that is a BIG step a BIG BIG BIG step. So glad of that! Lovely poem, my friend. A tribute. Jeanne Mcgee July 25, 2019 at 11:41 AM It was shock when she tried suicide, but I had feared she'd become a cutter when she was young and took siccors to everything when she got mad...and around age 11 she started cutting herself...she hid it well. If not for suicide attempt we would never have found it out and got her the help she needed. Everyday is a gift to have her...especially knowing so many don't get that second chance.