The Numbing Effect

The numbing effect .. Effects in every way.. At sunrise... Until sunset.. It is loyal .. It is dependable It is reliable.. It is resilient As it is persistent.. It almost has a mind of it's own.. It is quite an entity in itself.. It had entered into me.. An uninvited guest it was.. Numbness was over the moon.. Extremely elated.. With taking charge of my life.. Prevented me from life... An exceptional life.. Which was once the outcome.. Experiences.. Challenges.. Simple daily grinds Routines.. Spontaneity A foundation.. Of exquisiteness Life as we know it.. Love and fear.. All duelities that exist As such.. On the whole.. Crumbled To the ground.. Destroyed.. Was once enormously tall.. Towering so high The Pyramids of Giza Standing it's ground.. Pain.. Sadness.. A tragic past.. Allowed and embraced.. Welcomed with.. Open arms .. Numbness.. The numbing effect.. Had flourished.. It had taken over my entire being.. Allowing numbness to live out it's life.. Through me Inside me.. All senses are doormat... Sleeping comfortably numb inside me Life.. Not.. Duelities Not.. Therefore no experience.. attained.. No love and fear residing inside me.. A frozen state of mind Feelings and emotions gone away.. Blank state it is.. Empty and hollow.. For solidity had vanished.. The numbing effect had won.. Altough I can unpeel.. The layers of the onion.. One layer at a time.. Gradual and subtle.. Followed by determination.. The uninvited guest of numbness.. An entity in itself.. May .. One day.. Detach itself from myself.. Release freedom Directly to myself.. As a burden is lifted.. With all of my being.. With every breath I take.. I breathe clearly and effortlessly.. The breath of life remains inside of me.. Now I shall take a deep strong breath.. The breath of life I am.. Survival.. A life of substance.. I shall create.. From this day forward.. The numbing effect had already planned it's great escape.. Farewell as it stands..