Robertina B. Poet Free verse

The Numbing Effect

The numbing effect ..
Effects in every way..
At sunrise...
Until sunset..

It is loyal ..
It is dependable
It is reliable..
It is resilient
As it is persistent..

It almost has a mind of it's own..
It is quite an entity in itself..

It had entered into me..
An uninvited guest it was..
Numbness was over the moon..
Extremely elated..
With taking charge of my life..
Prevented me from life...

An exceptional life..
Which was once the outcome..
Experiences..
Challenges..
Simple daily grinds
Routines..
Spontaneity
A foundation..
Of exquisiteness
Life as we know it..
Love and fear..
All duelities that exist 
As such..
On the whole..
Crumbled
To the ground..
Destroyed..

Was once enormously tall..
Towering so high
The Pyramids of Giza
Standing it's ground..


Pain..
Sadness..
A tragic past..
Allowed and embraced..
Welcomed with..
Open arms ..
Numbness..

The numbing effect..
Had flourished..
It had taken over my entire being..

Allowing numbness to live out it's life..
Through me
Inside me..

All senses are doormat...
Sleeping comfortably numb inside me
Life..
Not..
Duelities
Not..
Therefore no experience..
attained..
No love and fear residing inside me..
A frozen state of mind
Feelings and emotions gone away..
Blank state it is..
Empty and hollow..
For solidity had vanished..

The numbing effect had won..
Altough I can unpeel..
The layers of the onion..
One layer at a time..

Gradual and subtle..
Followed by determination..
The uninvited guest of numbness..
An entity in itself..
May ..
One day..
Detach itself
from myself..
Release freedom
Directly to myself..
As a burden is lifted..

With all of my being..
With every breath I take..
I breathe clearly and effortlessly..

The breath of life remains inside of me..
Now I shall take a deep strong breath..

The breath of life I am..
Survival..
A life of substance..
I shall create..

From this day forward..
The numbing effect had already planned it's great escape..
Farewell as it stands..

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Ralph Sergi May 22, 2018 at 3:36 PM UPLIFTED BY ITS (BURDEN)

Ralph Sergi May 22, 2018 at 3:34 PM Felt the numbness In your poem but I was uplifted by its words My compliments! Robertina B. May 22, 2018 at 6:34 PM " Thank you so much for visiting along with your kind words, Ralph. Blessings to you! "

Vijay Pandit May 22, 2018 at 6:37 AM You captured it well in your moving words, Robertina..so glad the numbing effect didn't win. I like the positive turn in the poem at the ending. Robertina B. May 22, 2018 at 6:36 PM " Thank you so much for your kind words and visiting, Vijay.. Many Blessings to you "...

Susan Ashley May 21, 2018 at 10:20 PM Robertina, your emotionally expressive poem is told from a powerful point of view. I was drawn in and captivated by your awesome free verse. Warmest wishes always my friend. ~Susan Robertina B. May 22, 2018 at 6:38 PM " As always, thank you so much for your amazing feedback, Susan.. It is always such a pleasure !! Many Blessings to you.."

Mystic Rose Rose May 21, 2018 at 7:42 PM outstanding poetry , I think your muse has come alive. Thanks for sharing Robertina Robertina B. May 22, 2018 at 6:39 PM " It's always such a pleasure to receive feedback from you, Pixie.. Thank you so much!! Many Blessings to you.."

Laura Leiser May 21, 2018 at 6:30 PM What a powerful, emotional write about the negative effects of numbness, Robertina! I really got caught up in the angst of it. Excellent! Robertina B. May 21, 2018 at 6:39 PM Thank you so much for your visit, Laura.. You are so kind!! Blessings to you..