The Man Who Cherished Me

I wish I didn't stop to think, about the man who cherished me. My childhood so fun and fair, I remember your cologne drifting in the air. The days we went to the Space museums, showing me pictures of your trips to new Zealand. The greatness achieved when in the service, giving lives a better purpose. Just thinking of your voice is hard enough, I wish that I could be more tough. It hurts to think that now your gone, Grandpa I just can't be strong. That day in the rest home I hit my peak, the fear so bad I couldn't speak. I had to leave because I just cried, and cried, and lost my chance to say goodbye. I wish I could have let it out, and now I have to live without. I know your looking down and see, this pathetic thing I've grown to be. I just want to be like you, but I could never amount to you. Please help me through this pain I'm in, and help me to feel alive again. I miss you so much I just want to scream, I hope you visit me in my dreams. I love you Grandpa with all I have left, there is not much there but shame and stress. I want to honor you and become better, find my peace, if I can ever. I hope on day again I will see, the man who truly cherished me. I love you so much Grandpa and I am so so sorry.