The Letter That Shattered My Heart

A letter was written-an apology not once or twice but many times letters of sorrow have been written you, the author claim sorrow when hurting the others but what of me? are you not sorry...? Your letter shattered my heart and it wasn't even written for me... which is what hurts the most We were both there in that hour of hostility her and I were there together my heart had hammered at your angry words but I still stayed near you so you would know that I still cared And yet... you write only to say sorry to her Do I not matter? Do I not count? Many times I've cried because of you and yet all I get are broken apologies devoid of any meaning But she....she has been given so much... She who received a poem of sorrow- written by your heart When sorrow and guilt troubled you, You gave a gift to another- after bursts of anger turned weary and your soul burned with grief of shame But still...I remain...tortured by my insane love for you While never you are sorry...for the pain... Do you not feel guilt? Do you not care? WHY? WHY ARE YOU NOT SORRY? ......tell me... why do I not matter as much as the other? Was I not there? Did I NOT REMAIN YOUR LOYAL FRIEND? Or is all I am just a means to end for you? I don't understand.... You, my closest friend-whom I hold my deepest love... You wrote a letter that shattered my heart And it wasn't even for me... ----------------- Written: August, 2014