The Hate I Hold Inside

Everyone has a family, except for me
My happenstance of a cruel reality
Everyone is here for a reason, but why are you?
Your problems seem far away, I don't even have a clue

Bundled up inside I keep my feelings
That make up my entire state of being
The years of abuse that comprise my past
Will they ever be one day released at last?

The people who call me the incorrect names
The monster inside of me, never to be tamed
Demons I faced to be where I am today
No promised neverland for me to lay

Like every alpha woman, I fight alone
For none of the acts against me can ever be atoned
Abandoned by all, I run without a pack
Free from all others, but nothing I lack

But all are lucky that I choose to restrain
From making them feel every ounce of my pain
That never ends, or ceases for a moment
Afflicting my heart and soul like a monument

Harassed for things that are not my fault
Secrets that are locked up inside the vault
Of those who know the truth of what took place
One day in the future, the judgement they'll face

But silently I keep it all hidden inside
Brokenness hiding behind blue-green eyes
I hold back my tongue, and clench up my fists
And hide from the scars on my arms, legs and wrists

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Date: 12/19/2023 2:37:00 PM
Quite intense Harmony. Since none of us can change the past some have chosen to forgive and move forward, not for the sake of the offender, but for the sake of the victim.
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Date: 12/19/2023 4:25:00 PM
Indeed many have, but I still have to see the person who assaulted me rather frequently, and was told there was nothing I could do about it.
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