The Hate I Hold Inside

Everyone has a family, except for me My happenstance of a cruel reality Everyone is here for a reason, but why are you? Your problems seem far away, I don't even have a clue Bundled up inside I keep my feelings That make up my entire state of being The years of abuse that comprise my past Will they ever be one day released at last? The people who call me the incorrect names The monster inside of me, never to be tamed Demons I faced to be where I am today No promised neverland for me to lay Like every alpha woman, I fight alone For none of the acts against me can ever be atoned Abandoned by all, I run without a pack Free from all others, but nothing I lack But all are lucky that I choose to restrain From making them feel every ounce of my pain That never ends, or ceases for a moment Afflicting my heart and soul like a monument Harassed for things that are not my fault Secrets that are locked up inside the vault Of those who know the truth of what took place One day in the future, the judgement they'll face But silently I keep it all hidden inside Brokenness hiding behind blue-green eyes I hold back my tongue, and clench up my fists And hide from the scars on my arms, legs and wrists