The Feelings I Feel

I hate feeling like I’m not worth it, It’s not for me, I don’t deserve it. Good things never feel quite right When I’m in the darkness not the light. It all feels set up and made nice Like in a tale that might suffice. This aching feeling in my chest Making me suffer not at my best. I wonder why I feel like this, When everyone else sees me in bliss. I question why it feels so wrong When I’ve waited for it for so long. A beautiful, magical, feeling so pure But I just don’t know how to be sure. I’m sure of how I feel about you, I cherish you and all that you do. Though I fear how future me feels, All my mistakes will send her in reels. But maybe, just maybe, someday so surreal, These feelings I feel will finally seem real. Written March 8, 2023