The Fears I Have

I fear, I will not be enough for that world outside, I will not measure up to that who they expect me to be, want me to be. I fear the one I breathe… the one I see, will only see another. I fear for these faults I have, these weaknesses… those flaws. Who will cherish, who will want… those flaws I have? I fear, for my weigh on a machine... It says repellent, it says obese I fear, for my length on scale… It says unattractive, it says midget I fear the night, how I prefer the light instead, the bright instead Those owls and rats and bats; those foul creatures of the night. I fear the world, will misunderstand these thoughts I have Misinterpret these ideas I have. I fear the world will not appreciate; Those hours on the mirror, those rivers I sweat. I fear I shall not attain those goals I have, those dreams I dream My enemies will prosper, while misery and despair are paired with me I fear they will change my parts… make me into a thing with no heart A thing with no face… and look down on my race! I fear the questions I have, the doubts I have But more than ore, I fear I shall die before I live, I fear I shall not live till I die!