The Exorcism of Gbad Pt 1

Sometimes I still feel like a child Crying and scared, sucking back snot in bed Suffering in silence, alone in the dark Begging and pleading, I was just dead So many memories repressed, suppressed Trying, always trying, another try No one to listen, for who would believe A child wanted to die My reality was beyond my thought skill set Couldn't comprehend or understand why I wanted to fly, just fly I can never forget How I felt how I did, I was a kid, why try? But the pain was full grown, So I hid what was felt Leaving the pain unknown It was so hard, I would pray to God "Please end this misery i'm in" Only to awaken in morning, last night was forlorning Maybe I should just do myself in But forever the coward, I trudged on Battling forces I can't control The black hole in my heart became darker An inevitable fight for my soul Was about to become a reality No one saw the storm that was approaching The rage was about to brew, and boil over The dark cloud began rapidly encroaching.....