The Exorcism of G-Bad Pt4

My little bro has some news He tells it real slow Stage 4 in his lungs Time left he doesn't know My disbelief, denial, I couldn't face the fact No way, they're wrong The world felt like it was gonna crack Each month it spread, another organ or a bone Why him? Please God. Leave my bro alone Watching this disease took me down to my knees Take me instead I plead, i've always wanted the release I was the ass who deserved it Rob was always the better man I had rebuked God, sold my soul So I couldn't understand He's got babies at home who need to have their dad The ******* I was, self admitting I was bad The guilt since he died, still brews in my mind But the despair and grief, it's hard to leave behind Still to this day, I scream into the sky Profanity laden, asking why he had to die