The Dichotomy Prayer

The dichotomy prayer I'm free, my will So stagnant this standstill designed by He Of metaphors and mystery My mountains of molehills no carrots yet im gold So it's said , "only one you". Talent unused -a crime Oil crude untapped, and yeah still unrefined Some say it's true -that's that. Please see me through I'm trapped. I'm in the pews -I've asked? This stop in time-I've perused This Catholic boy at mass Which voice's or choice- need clues? God for your will, let me be used The many for the few? Too many just do you? Answers I've seen plenty Is only one what's true? A number in a stack? It's two. God right now it's me n you. Inside I'm so dirty, hands just washed I'm clean. Body language 101 we all know what that means I wander yet I stay on track Move forward then slide back Ambiguous I happen docile I attack.. Up-down, left-right I Wait-i stop- slow down. A soldier I see red So serious a clown Straight ahead... The record circle's round and round A lush- a softy made of lead, in such a rush... Sirens all around Right where I was A code, OD'eeed-male In silenca, a man down He's cool, clammy and pale From defects I was drowned The hurry from the country to uptown Loved people in a rush don't touch, so much is still unfound. I look around, I'm lost A pilot on the ground Im hot, I'm cold- but clutch Not now Calm then told "im bout ta bust" these drugs a crutch, for way too long Too many times discussed Lord, just where do I belong? In you I trust- My faith a must In silence I stand strong You choose us-it's left then right? For insight I do pray Left, right What's left -I write Each breath I fight, i say: Now in sorrow -right is right. "Some direction" if i may? Right where im at -tomorrow? I see right past today. The here - why, where n how? Good moments passed away Ambiguous I talk Rhetoric Q "n" A? But mine! -just lines of chalk an outline where i lay! My question of all time Was I grateful for my stay?