Kelly Hitchcock Poet Rhyme

The Devils Circle

Trapped in a vicious loop
Thoughts spinning around and around
Lost - confused
No meaning or purpose to be found

I know what I want
But the extreme feelings of fear
Brings me right to the same place
To the years I still hear

The yelling - The drinking
The dark nights filled with tears
Self-confidence gets crippled
I remain the same year after year

Words got imprinted
Habits develop and take hold
I keep going through motions
Hell - I don’t even know

I’ve identify with the thoughts
Now the thoughts create me
The neural ruts have been dug 
I guess I’ll always be - what I’ll always be

I’ll do it over and over and over again
It’s sad
These flawed beliefs
Have literally become my best friend

So I take a drink
I eat to suppress the feelings down below
I say I want change
But it’s like filling a bottomless hole

So this is my life
The devils circle in my mind
I’ve attached to my thoughts
Hence – my life

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FJ Thomas January 2, 2020 at 11:53 AM Dang Kelly, this is a hard hitter! Hopefully fiction though. This is truth for many; a truth no one wants to tell. Awesomeness Kelly! FJ Thomas January 2, 2020 at 1:34 PM I definitely see how you would have much to work from. Sounds like a helping yet stressful path. Wishing peace for you always Kelly :) Kelly Hitchcock January 2, 2020 at 12:28 PM Thanks FJ, I am a personal trainer and a life coach. I also work for the SMART recovery program (drugs and alcohol). Some of the poems I write are about me, but others are about stories I hear throughout my day. I have a lot of material!