The Devils Circle

Trapped in a vicious loop Thoughts spinning around and around Lost - confused No meaning or purpose to be found I know what I want But the extreme feelings of fear Brings me right to the same place To the years I still hear The yelling - The drinking The dark nights filled with tears Self-confidence gets crippled I remain the same year after year Words got imprinted Habits develop and take hold I keep going through motions Hell - I don’t even know I’ve identify with the thoughts Now the thoughts create me The neural ruts have been dug I guess I’ll always be - what I’ll always be I’ll do it over and over and over again It’s sad These flawed beliefs Have literally become my best friend So I take a drink I eat to suppress the feelings down below I say I want change But it’s like filling a bottomless hole So this is my life The devils circle in my mind I’ve attached to my thoughts Hence – my life