The Day Has Come I Realize

The day has come that I realize that my soul has been slayed killed by its murderous blade of lies and shame don't understand it probably never will I try to keep hope for the future but my light gets blown out every time like candles on a birthday cake crashing me down and spiting on my face while they laugh My dad said I'm a leader, but I'm starting to second guess his words starting to think I am a follower sent to do others will I'm the sheep that has been lead to the slaughter Like the Christ put on the cross for our sins And pray for all my friends that are in Hell the ones I couldn't save the ones I couldn't make the sell for the ones who are locked up in the cold cell we have problems that only human, but I just hate that we have so many of them This is my last verse to tell I don't know why I get back up I just do Is it because of faith,truth,love,pride, or just stupidity? I won't know the reason until the smoke clears this is my proclamation I will stay strong even when I get knocked down I will get right back up The day has come I realize