The Battered Wife

I cannot go backwards. I can’t believe in the deception You impersonate so well Smell of flowers Plucked in hell Hugs and kisses when lights are on Yells and broken walls When we are all alone Sweetness that is calibrated to a love you emaciated I have lived this deception But when you left I gained more perception And now I see you so well How you never ever could Be truthfully yourself You can keep on trying But now I know when you are lying You think you are starving me without your touch? You are only saving me from your leftover lust keeping my body intact From your half effort love acts I would pray for you to find someone else But I don’t like to say prayers wishing for No one in this world, hell And you bring the dissonance to your son The hot and cold The farse you carry in your entire soul Is so more than just An imperfect man sinning It is machinated scheming I stopped hearing your cries When I realized they are calculated Suppressors of your lies You really thought you would break my soul? That’s fine, it makes me smirk a bit, you know The only thing you did Was to open cracks in my heart So I could leak in the world What I carried within me from the start Those who have been around you before They know I won’t wish you anything I am too focused on my own growth Each day I wipe the blood from your gifts The type of touch you got me used to Blood, bruises, and stiches My love that forgave you Moments after you punched my ears Making the sounds of your curses From them literally bleed That love Brought me home Yet you curled in a ball Inside of the tub So small Begging mercy to this soul You hated with love, you wanted to control I hugged you in pain and blood To let you know We are all one soul By hurting me You ended up hurting yourself Didn’t you know? I can hear the noises of your lies The fear of being truthful The need to eternally be in disguise I never lost a thing in here I only regained my strength And in myself I never stopped believing I don’t wish on your downfall But I am already rising Cannot withstand being so small I am far away from your dimension Nothing more in here that I can do Just to leave you alone And pray for you to live your life with intention