The bane of my existence and the object of my desire

"You're the Bane of my existence and the object of my desire", I could never tell you that, these words could describe what I feel for you but only incorrectly. You could never be the Bane of my existence, because I feel blessed to have known you, I feel honoured to have had the great joy of seeing you smile, you aren't the Bane but you are solely the cause of my existence, I would rather have my lips sewn shut for eternity than to think of you as a Bane or curse because you, my darling, are the what makes my existence exist, without you, love, I wouldn't be who I am my existence wouldn't be mine, I'd be a fraud, an imposter without having had the chance to have been changed for good by you, I wouldn't recognise who I se in the mirror, I wouldn't have known myself, id be a stranger to my eyes, if it wasn't for you. I'd still be living in darkness, convinced that the world is just fifty shades of black if you hadn't lit my world the moment you told me hi, if the darkness in my life hadn't swept away the second I have seen your eyes twinkle and your cheeks turn maroon ever so slightly when you smiled at me. You, my love, aren't just an object that I desire, you are the answer to all my prayers, the one glimmer of light that I'd begged god for, you are my destiny and my fate, you are the missing piece that my soul has forever longed for and I'd be a fool to turn such a perfect and complex person like you into merely an object that I desire. But you aren't just an object,.you are so much more meaningful than that. And Yes, I desire you, it is true that you're all my desires combined, but I not only desire you I need you, I want you and I love you and those words don't nearly compare enough to what I feel for you, I feel oceans of love for you I'm not able to express even a drop worth and that I will forever regret.