The Askance Chapter 5 Part 5c

For the war to end between Gods, its humans they turn to rely How ironic it can be for in my World, its Gods we chose to defy And why all the irregular mishap to have to endure along…? Is there no place in Heaven for us mortals to only feel belong? How from whence they only chose, we as chosen is to begin To dispel all that was learnt, all that was given life to mean With thoughts anew, I look at Alkaiya with simpleton eyes Nevermore knowing what I may or may evermore find to shy And with this dream after a many years to come to meet This moment I’m to penned in my realities as so to speak} “In my world, where I’m originally from in every way My belief has not the system to work in your everyday I am bounded by time to be awaken into this Ancient World And thus to remember what the Gods has only unto me to hurl And unfortunately, I do remember with the coming of The Askance As well the enchanted odyssey of love with Ei-rian the befallen I remember the aging wars where the dying never seem to end And to see time becoming irrelevant to a matter of no when With the unwelcoming being inevitable towards my time I relent and submit, leaving my one life I have known so well, all behind Death was my remedy from whence before I’m reborn Birthing The Askance for my dreams to one day haunt And the nightmare has not the slightest hint to ever cease Edging me to fear for the coming of each night to fall asleep I used to believe, but did I honestly believe things unnaturally uncalled for? Had it not been love, a mortal in my world I’m only to remain as bore It may seem to you only yesterday, if ever I have been gone However to me, maybe a matter of months for a return to long I haven’t the slightest inkling for how my time shall present I’m only to move along, bearing this monstrosity to comprehend My other life as I’m to know, as I’m born into realistically Is in comparison, the upmost disparity dissimilarly Everything everywhere, moves with such vastness in turn Else here, one’s life retains its simplicity to only earn Yet, upon it bears a much greater endeavour immeasurably My reality… has only matters to oneself conceivably To stray away, to change, to accept everything anew To then believe, to achieve, to live a life questionably real Of reasons only to myself, I understand my importance here And whether to live up to my destiny draws but constant fear