The Askance Chapter 4 Part 3c

The love in her, the hate in war and the unjustly moment in time Is reality the indefinite cause to forbid and discern The Ancients behind? Decidedly, I lifted her off the ground and began the loneliest path? Walking in discontent and knowing not where of aid to ask? Each weighted step was taken with a sigh of a heavy heart Distorting images of her was as well preparing to tear me apart I remembered the first time I came upon her atop a shadowy stone Singing towards the Heavens… an aria infuse of sorrows alone Taken aback by my appearance thereafter with a single tear Of years in loneliness where relief is finally to wash away fear Her strength speaks the better of her as the berserker in torment Her words bearing the burden of times lost in valuable endearment Her love buried deep within that goes hidden and unseen all along Perhaps knowing greater things are at stake then have undesired emotions to hold on Or might Ei-rian be the one she is to think lesser of herself entirely Humans comparing to Gods, being inadequate and acting foolishly I wondered on in reluctance as I neared the end of the stony fields Already, the arising Sun was spilling its light over the distant hills With a moment more, everything was clear and obscure at the same time Her oval face was seen the last as darkness is to return to shine} I jolted awoke with a start Seeing Alkaiya no longer in my arms Reality is once again to tear me apart Before my return, I pray she be unharmed I know she is to remain in my mind for the rest of day And I blame myself for being incapable to save her In a well of grief, I lit a joint and in my room I stay Miraging possible solutions to rid her of death she so nears Somehow, her love has return into my thought Can I forsake my task and love her as I did… Ei-rian? Silent tears against silent years need be fought Feelings must I place aside and to only await my silent dream And then materialize was an image as I recall A prophesized dream that she was to be murdered by me! Absurdly, the irrelevant thought has cause hope to befall That of which the assumption of her to live to be Let the dream be true for now If the time comes, I will be in total control! Mind over matters, determination needs be found A destiny to defy for a fate to unfold Can you not see I’m alone? I’m calling out to you Ei-rian, can you not hear? Between reality and dream, which is home? Must I be burdened for all time in relentless fear? …………………………………………….