That Little Girl
That Little Girl
Born into a world where the people she would come to love
Would be the people who would hurt her the most
Always hoping for their love, approval and care
Never giving up on her dream that someday she would get just that
Hanging on to the memories of the few times when she did.
A sex slave to her own father
Every day wanting to die
Yet fighting to survive
Pouring her heart out
Not getting anything in return
Crying on the inside while pasting a smile on the outside
Feeling the grief and relief
After her father pases away
Then feeling guilty, ashamed and confused
For feeling any relief and why
Not even wanting to believe one of the people, she loved the most
Had hurt her and then abandoned her
That is how she felt
Going to school and pasting a smile on
Being funny one day
Mean the next
Never knowing how she should be
Always doing her best to hide
The pain inside
Surrounding herself with friends
Keeping them at a distance
Not really letting them in
If they were just using her that was okay
Being popular was all that mattered
Even if it compromised who she really was
On The Inside
Trying to please everyone
While never pleasing her
Thinking food was the enemy
She never felt skinny enough
Not eating, vomiting when she did
Starvation became a way of life
Little did she know she would have to fight it the rest of her life
That was her life
That was her world
Until someone came along
Showed her it did not have to be
She could get better if she tried
With a lot of work
Determination
And a long road still to go
Always trying to focus on the light at the end of every tunnel
She has come such a long way
Now
That Little Girl
Has turned into
Me
By: Jean Shular
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