That Happy Smile of This Girl I Know
I want a reason to live
My heart wrenches in pain all too often
Tears stream down my cheeks
Trembling lips
An urge to scream loudly
I hold it all in.
There are way too many thoughts swirling in my head
Dizziness and a feeling of loneliness
Creeping right under my skin
A mental breakdown is soon to show
I hold it all in.
Everyday I get closer to believe
Death might be a better place
For one who is nothing
but a hindrance to oneself
I hold it all in.
Thoughts of doing harm again
It is getting tough not to do so
Letting everything spill on the floor
The water stealing every drop away
I hold it all in.
Weights fallen drastically
Who notices, no one
Trying to be pretty
Who am I kidding?
I am nothing but bones
A shell yet full of too many emotions.
La la la la.
Mind not clear.
Eyes clouded.
Throat soar.
Body numb.
I want to leave.
Somewhere faaaaar away.
I am afraid of the day
I can not hold it all in
That day shall be
My Death
Wandering off to somewhere else
Fed with lies from all sides
I am Alone.
Copyright © Juliett Green | Year Posted 2012
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