Text You Back

I don't always text you back because I'm not available emotionally When I push you away, it means I want you close to me I've been hurt so much, I'm unable to love like most I can't always text you back, so I understand if you Want to go I can only hold you for so long, because I need my space We can write our chapter, but it'll take a long time to complete a page Depression has me as a hostage, everyday I'm at war with myself I've felt more sadness than happiness, my heart has been broken more than held I thought I had the right to play girls because my mother was never there But now I realise when I made these girls suffer, it was unfair Every day I wish I could go back to my younger days and not cheat But how could I commit knowing I was giving them a heart that bleeds? I think of the perfect things to say but I don't know how to say them I've never seen love, so I'm unable to display them I want to be able to give you all of me, but I'm always reserved It's impossible to give someone your all when you've been hurt I want to provide you happiness and less problems But running away from my broken heart is your best option I've came to the realisation I'm destined to be alone I try my best to get it right, but I always end up getting it wrong I don't always text you back because I'm not available emotionally When I push you away, it means I want you close to me I've been hurt so much, I'm unable to love like most I can't always text you back, so I understand if you Want to go