Tell It Like It Is

So I am supposed to be this ray of light, the one with the brilliant upon brilliant idea The one with the cute memes and gifs I am the one who always bounces who always smiles and yet I am the one who loves you when it flies in the face of all reason I am the one who stands by the window waiting for you when I know there’s No white horse When I know that given the opportunity to sally forth you’re going to stand and wait and Refuse to tell me why To look me in the eyes And I’m going to be looking out that window for you when the light breaks In the morning I’ll never believe you aren’t coming I’ll never give up because Even though you won’t step up to a love story you helped create I can’t step away It has become a fabric of who I am and I’m not sure torn apart from it There is enough of me left to survive on its own You want to ignore something because it’s inconvenient Even though you helped bring it to life and now thanks to a twist of fate you have a good reason to Walk away Watch it die And it will and I will with it, staring out the window at the moon Still believing you are looking at the same one- Yea-- Tonight there is no bounce no brilliant upon brilliant idea brilliant enough to save me Yes I moved here for the sand and the surf and the seagulls and the healing of every breeze off the ocean But I would have stayed in a moment to be with you I would leave here tomorrow if you would live with me if you would love me If --- But as it is the ocean is the sanctuary preventing me from being ten minutes away And yet a lifetime apart From watching you live a life with somebody else With my hand against the glass Tonight I am in my tower Waiting for the white horse never mounted And I no longer believe-