Tarnished

T urned out by few, yes I played the fool. A nother time I allowed a man to make the rules. R eppressed to a point myself was almost lost. N ever thinking what that would mentally cost. I rrationally I made believe these feelings were real. S uffocated all the anger and pain I would feel. H ow unfair to those who care for me today. E ndlessly those old feeling come back into play. D oomed are all of my relationships for now, I must escape the past but can't see how.