Takotsubo Cardio
Takotsubo
My grief would overtake me.
There was nothing that could shake me.
I could not get out of bed. I had nothing but bedhead.
Hygiene was lacking, and I was constantly snaking.
I could not move at times, maybe as far as the floor and maybe as far as my door.
I was dead inside, and I wanted to hide.
My mind was jumbled, and I constantly stumbled.
I didn't see any way out. I just was missing out.
I couldn't think straight, and I said to myself, " God, is this my fate?".
This pain inside hurt worse, but my pride prevented me from gaining momentum.
It was all so tempting, enchanting, and easy to stay in stagnation.
It was so easy not to acknowledge all my feelings that I pushed them aside.
The sensitivities in me were full of impulsive extremities. One day was calm, one day good, and one day bad. Folks thought they knew but never really understood.
I was lying, denying that this tug was dug deep in my seat. I was paralyzed and couldn't see the explicit constraints I placed upon me.
How could I face such an awful feeling?
Toxic shame was my haven, but I knew I couldn't stay there.
I knew I had to figure things out to remove the fog and clear my mind.
Delusions were upon me, not seeing the truth.
I thought I had all the answers, and I honestly thought I knew.
I failed to see the actual reality of the situation. I was chasing a dream and giving in to foolish temptations.
I need to pull myself out and see this for what they are.
My situation is the severe effect of an actual broken heart.
Love, Temptations, Illusions, Clarity. Relationships challenge us to evolve into the people we need to become. Some stay stuck, and then some become awakened. Have no fear
, God will always be there with the unconditional love one has never felt. Many run from it, thinking it's terrible, but it's all to get us to our highest truth here at Earth School.
Take Care ????
Copyright © Dena Brown | Year Posted 2024
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