Taking Advantage of My Weakness

I'm trying to disintegrate All these years of doubt and hate Building up until I break No giving, just lots of take Your attitude is wrecking me Looking back, how could I see My life being ripped apart It was good first at the start Then year by year and day by day It was fading far away Jealousy, attitude and madness I was blind to all the sadness That's been slipping quietly Into my life so silently Spreading germs of love and sickness How could I get over this I wanted to make it work Nieve and young, you would jerk Me all around with great emotion Every bit of my devotion Was used against me so long I didn't know how to be strong