Take Me From This Misery

* this poem has been inspired by Breaking Benjamin's Dear Agony....* * and was written in memory of my grandmother Jeanne Gula * My name is Jeanne Gula, today i found out that i have cancer. Its in a tumor, that's very painful, its very rare, its 3 cancers into 1 they already took it out once... and it came back. The doctor said it was to late to take it out again. Its not the perfect end to my life, but its all i can have.. I don't really know how much more time i have. I used to be able to walk by myself, with out help. I can't believe this happened to me... of all people. It's be coming torture, they called in hospices. This cant be good... I'm in my own home, slowly dieing... I really don't want to leave, I will leave so many loved ones behind.. So I think i will stay a little longer... Its January, i now can't do anything by myself, i have to rely on family to help with everything, my organs are starting to slowly shut down, its very painful to go through. but my daughters birthday is coming soon... I'm not going to leave now... i don't want her to be sad, on such a happy day. I can't hold on much longer. I'm now out of this misery, its feb. 2nd, and I'm finally free. Free, of all this pain, and I'm healthy again, I can walk, with out hanging on to anything or anyone, I can finally be independent again... now no one cry for me, because i lived a full long life, and no longer in pain.. I love you all. Love Grammy