Sunday 9 PM

When younger, less afraid of dying.
Even now, less afraid of dying
than fearful I am already too dead for fully functional 
resuscitation

Reviving reconnecting
inter-religious panentheism

Maybe it’s just another monotheistic Sunday 9 PM,
last dregs of responsible weekend parenting,
trying to remember, then forget,
why I thought parenting would be good for my spiritual life,
unlike eremitic vows
or even celibacy.

No, not for me
such traditional eco-mythologies,
our reconnecting regeneration 
will become egomind/eco-body therapists
of polycultural healthy 
re-ligious cooperativity!

What an exhausting anthrosupremacist ideation!
swollen with polyvagal win/lose mediocrity,
sad happiness of merry pathogens,
ungreeting alien unmet teenagers,
shape-shifting into truly terrifying young adults,
halfway between my eternally wise ZenZero 
full-peak/empty-valley bicameral
budding wokeness
and neuro-sexsensory wildness,
their unreformed perfect creepiness
stretching my boundaries of reasonable 
love-life expectations.

I’m far less afraid of dying
than I fear indigenous EarthTribes fading away 
without me
attending to over-spiritualized worship services
to reconnect us each 
and preverbal panentheistic all
with how utterly exhausting we are 
untogether communicating
in siloed sanctuaries of LeftBrain silence
sincerity
religioning EarthTribe's win/win potential integrity.

Another Sunday 9 PM
re-membering to not forget
my spirited-natural 
indigenous love
wise panentheistic life
if only drifting RightBrain prominent
feelings of ego-mindhealth
and safe eco-bodywealth
until a win/lose traumatic
disturbing
BusinessAsUsual 6 AM
alone
older
still surrounded by unsafe
homophobic 
straight monotheistic
anthrosupremacist hypocrisy

To think that a secularized human nature
could ever be as beautiful
as lilies in the field
or as wise
as an indigenous 
panentheistically nurturing
LeftCrown dominant
RightRoot recessive
MotherTree.

Copyright © Gerald Dillenbeck | Year Posted 2016

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