Sunday 9 PM

When younger, less afraid of dying. Even now, less afraid of dying than fearful I am already too dead for fully functional resuscitation Reviving reconnecting inter-religious panentheism Maybe it’s just another monotheistic Sunday 9 PM, last dregs of responsible weekend parenting, trying to remember, then forget, why I thought parenting would be good for my spiritual life, unlike eremitic vows or even celibacy. No, not for me such traditional eco-mythologies, our reconnecting regeneration will become egomind/eco-body therapists of polycultural healthy re-ligious cooperativity! What an exhausting anthrosupremacist ideation! swollen with polyvagal win/lose mediocrity, sad happiness of merry pathogens, ungreeting alien unmet teenagers, shape-shifting into truly terrifying young adults, halfway between my eternally wise ZenZero full-peak/empty-valley bicameral budding wokeness and neuro-sexsensory wildness, their unreformed perfect creepiness stretching my boundaries of reasonable love-life expectations. I’m far less afraid of dying than I fear indigenous EarthTribes fading away without me attending to over-spiritualized worship services to reconnect us each and preverbal panentheistic all with how utterly exhausting we are untogether communicating in siloed sanctuaries of LeftBrain silence sincerity religioning EarthTribe's win/win potential integrity. Another Sunday 9 PM re-membering to not forget my spirited-natural indigenous love wise panentheistic life if only drifting RightBrain prominent feelings of ego-mindhealth and safe eco-bodywealth until a win/lose traumatic disturbing BusinessAsUsual 6 AM alone older still surrounded by unsafe homophobic straight monotheistic anthrosupremacist hypocrisy To think that a secularized human nature could ever be as beautiful as lilies in the field or as wise as an indigenous panentheistically nurturing LeftCrown dominant RightRoot recessive MotherTree.