Sun Shade

(The title means there is still hope beyond the hardship or light at the end of the tunnel. *Note from J W Earnings*) No one has a right to call me horrid things I wish you feel my pain and its insane stings Hello to goodbye, I simply, heavily sigh Sometimes, I feel like crying and dying no lie Kill the sorrow There’s tomorrow Life’s a sparrow Without wings to borrow Forgiveness will give you satisfaction This emerald compass will give you direction You found me in an awful mess today…of dismay You made it up to me tonight; alright…on the freeway I am acting like the victim I’m being selfish emotionally No need to be like them I’m my own person actually You called me foul names Forced to take the blames You touched me all the way On the edge…falling, I pray You save me from my suicide You save me from my bipolar ride Save it for another tomorrow Leave it to yesterday below You played me like a video game All I feel is this anguish and shame Get it over with and shut it please Music is blasting and I’m the tease Fought the battle of baffling lonesome I never knew people thought I was handsome They saw through the phases of my shady past Or so I assumed...this joy somewhat doesn’t last Shattered like nothing matters Fire and snow, you know, nurtures You flatter me with your childish antics This heart needs more than a simple fix Still in distress…it’s hard to move on Axed down like a tree times a ton Release the anxiety I have been lost in Saturated in the sweat of my…my sin… Forgiveness is forgetting genuinely The password to my trust is too complicated apparently You lied, I lied…let’s leave that in the dust-clustered past I want this blissful lifetime to last, not this ache so vast Enliven my empathetic nature Tomorrow is a million miles away, but that won’t stop me, no way Good-bye to hello that’s for sure Catch me in the web of wishes come true and, yes, come what may No one needs to point out my wrongs God is the only Judge and you aren’t, my strange dear Wrapped up in woe and write it in songs Most of all, have no sign of fear and be of good cheer Daisies of delight grow I want to live and glow Shade of abyss will not show So, yeah, you better know, A lowly Death – big N.O.!